But If I Lack Love...

"I may have faith to make mountains fall, but if I lack love, I am nothing at all"
- Lauren Hill

This is one of my favorite lyrical rhymes from Lauren Hill who is such a talented rapper/ artist. And one of the things that makes her so unique is that she sings from scripture. This lyric is actually taken from 1 Corinthians 13:1, and it speaks about the Excellence of Love. Even after I've typed these lyrics out, I'm still amazed at it's message. It's core is so simple and yet so profound. We can have all the spiritual gifts that God can offer, but without love all our speaking in tongues, fasting, endless prayers, mission trips to save the world mean nothing.

I can look back to a hand full of times in my past where I would a conversation with someone about the faith in Jesus, and I could have cared less about whether that person ended up in Heaven or Hell. All I cared about was being right. Nothing else mattered. In hindsight I can see how God has been faithful in growing me and teaching me how love. But I will probably never see those people again and I will never be able to take those words back. The words have been exchanged and the emotions have been felt. I'll probably never get a chance to apologize to those people but I'm going to say I'm sorry anyways. I'm sorry. I'm sorry for being such a hypocritical Christian. I'm sorry for taking the love God offered to us and perverting it into a competition of right and wrong. I'm sorry if I ever made you feel angry or unloved. But most of all I'm sorry if I ever in any way hindered you from seeing God's unfailing and unwavering love for you.

It's never been about me, it never will. My so called "faith" is and always will be a vessel to which God pours out His love. May my faith never be a podium of pride and glory from which I stand and boast. For what more can I boast in than the love of Jesus? I bow humbly before the true and only source of our faith- God.